Even if I had, I still would've had to deal with him, of course. Nothing would have changed. And he'd do the same as he did back then; not listen. He said I was the only one who understood him.
I'm beginning to understand how he was capable of dismissing me with the same breath. I do not think he was ever really capable of care. Perhaps this is who he really was, all that time.
Or perhaps I'm just trying to give myself a little less credit for what's here now.
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I'm beginning to understand how he was capable of dismissing me with the same breath. I do not think he was ever really capable of care. Perhaps this is who he really was, all that time.
Or perhaps I'm just trying to give myself a little less credit for what's here now.